Dedication

Introduction

1. Trapped,  with nowhere to run
2. I’ve always been afraid
3. Rage overwhelms my fear
4. I won the birth lottery
5. Creating an intimate game, with fear
6. Initiation into the world of men
7. Setting the game in motion
8. Feeding on the cruelty of the world
9. I’ve signed a binding contract
10. Accepted into my first tribe
11. I’ve already been in a skydiving plane
12. I’m not a freak of nature
13. Accelerate the failure
14. My life’s dream is over,  at twenty-two
15. Who’s your Daddy?
16. Being laid off was a blessing in disguise
17. Glider flight over rolling, green hills
18. When is the protective bubble of safety a trap?
19. I’m ten years old again
20. Leaving the illusion  of a safe, predictable life
21. Knight takes bishop, at 125 miles per hour
22. My fear turns to fun
23. Look where you want to go
24. A reminder of my  contract with death
25. I’m not an adrenaline junkie
26. Alone, unemployed, homeless
27. Flipping my graduation tassel, at 12,500 feet
28. It’s only a handshake
29. Revelations

Epilogue